My Newest Ebay Purchase :)

So its no secret that I adore makeup so after seeing a bunch of reviews on these mega eye shadow palettes I took the plunge and got one... It took 3 weeks to get here but it finally arrived today yay!

I tested out some colors on my hand and WOW are they highly pigmented. A little goes a long way with these... I cant wait to test out some of these crazy colors... It cost me approx $30 CDN but since im trying to start my makeup collection it was worth it :)

Although each color is only the size of a dime its ok because they have so much pigment you can use less and there is a good mix of shimmers and mattes which is nice.. Ill test out some looks and post pics in the next few days for you all :)



If you want to order this pallet just search for 120 eye shadow palette on ebay.com :)

Went to the Grocery store and all i saw was......

HALLOWEEN CANDY!!! OMG its fall already :(

In light of this realization i will now post some strange, funny & unusual halloween costume pics!

Take a look at this Bubble bath gone SO wrong....



This one is brilliant LOL...


This one is So creative...


WTF?!!


Ok but in all seriousness i want a reason to dress up this halloween so im thinking about hosting a party at my place... we shall see... i need cute costume ideas... i wanna do crazy makeup this year....

Things you shouldnt say to random people....

Dont you just LOVE when people feel the need to come up to you and tell you you look tired or ask have you been crying? your eyes look puffy.... NO i wasnt crying but i think i might go ball my eyes out or stab them with a ball point pen now THANKS!!

Telling someone you dont know well that they "look tired" is almost, ALMOST as bad as asking someone if they a pregnant without knowing 100% if they are! Just dont do it... ask a third party if you must but NEVER ask directly... do all of us a favor and keep that shit to yourself!

This message has been brought to you by the letters F and U again thats F-U....
:)

Yes im still Alive!

I kinda sorta forgot about this blog lol..
lifes just been one thing after another.. sigh
The summer has come and now almost gone and it SO wasnt the summer i had hoped for but whatever..

Ive been thinking a lot lately.. maybe just maybe im ready to admit that i actually "look" for faults in the men i date... I realized this because since i broke up with the long distance ex over a year ago ive been on a string of dates, actually had a few multiple dates with some and made an active effort to get myself out there to meet new ppl and somehow here i am STILL single! I must admit that 99% of me being single is my doing... I find myself looking for what these guys are doing wrong on the first or second date... geez how did this happen?

I feel like im just so jaded by all my other experiences that i dont know how to give anyone a chance. I feel like im protecting my heart before they can hurt it or not allowing myself to get attached for fear that it will end anyway....

Im in a pretty weird emotional state right now... i dont know what to think anymore.. sigh

A Moment In Passing

Ive waited years for a moment like this..
years for a moment with YOU...
the feeling of knowing everything will be ok,
Its arrived... we had a moment..
and now that moment is gone...

Did you mean what you said? what was unspoken?
Did your eyes mean what they said as they looked into mine..
no words needed it seemed..
Why am i left second guessing a moment i thought so true?
Why do you want this, me, if you cant follow through?

So i sit and i wait,
as i always have for you..
for you to decide what a big boy wants....

Random Thursday

Yesterday i went out for dinner with my gf who also just ended her situation for a "bah we dont need em anyway" meal... The wine was flowing the stories were told and then the waiter came around and asked... "so what are you two celebrating tonight".. we kinda just stopped and looked at each other and then my gf blurted out "bashing MEN!" we busted out laughing although he kinda looked really scared lol..
He was cute though.. big blue eyes...

Lawyer dude asked me out to lunch tomorrow.. last time he bailed so im not holding my breath... Handy man wants to do something tonight but i have to work on my school project so thats out..

You know whats actually quite amusing to read.. the singles ads on kijiji.ca they go something like this...
Hot Indian guy looking for any indian lady single or married and bored.. call me 555-555-5555.... With a classic pic of his oily side parted hair and shiny orange shirt.... like the bad guy in a really bad bollywood movie!

I mean if you are posting your number and a pic like thats you gotta expect crank calls bud.. based on your pic and the flower drapes in the back you still live with your mama.. not one of your best moves huh!

You know these sure do cheer you up when your in a bad mood... try it sometime...

Easy Come Easy Go......

Annnnd another one bites the freakin dust!!
The new dude is no longer in the picture.. He was 2 busy, i was never a priority and quite frankly im sick of waiting around or having to tell ppl how to treat me soo i gently let him go...something tells me he wasnt too upset by it all though..

If you havent already heard the song Soulmate by natasha beddingfield i seriously suggest youtubing it...

I cant catch a break in the dating world it seems... and so my soap opera of a life continues!

In other news im going to see Boyz II Men for the 3rd time in July YAY and i got a raise today sooo.. lifes not all bad lol...

Trying to stay positive here ppl...

Monday Blahs

Im so ridiculously tired today wow! I cant even think straight right now.. So dude left for Cancun saturday with his boys... Im sure hes having a blast while i sit here watching the rain and the gray skies... Hes probably partying every night till 4am then laying on the beach till 6pm and meeting all kinds of people... girls to be specific i mean it IS cancun... BUT im trying not to think about this too much no one needs to see a paranoid QB!

Things will change this summer i can feel it... good, bad,ugly? who knows but change is in the air!

argh im 2 tired to write more...

Eww Could it be?!

Well ladies and gents....

Im sad to say that i have given in to that stupid thing called emotions!! I decided back in Nov to get out there and start dating again after being single since July. I wanted to have fun, meet new ppl, let loose and maybe boost my ego a little (WHAT like yall havent done it!) So i signed up on one of those trendy dating sites and off i went.... I met about 6-7 total guys most being either duds or just not my type except 1. We chatted maybe twice on the phone but each times had amazing conversations most of which contained joke after joke and then i set up a meet & greet... Well needless to say the date went great he was fun, adorable and a total gentleman and its now been almost 4 months worth of dating..

Whats the problem you ask? Well its been close to 4 months and i have little idea how he feels.. i mean i KNOW hes interested, he wouldnt want to hang out if he wasnt but we have never really talked about where we stand and although im pretty afraid to commit agian and dont want a title to this madness id at least like to know that its possibly heading there... He made a comment in early march after i returned from a 2 week vacation that he saw us working towards a relationship... yeah ok fine thats cool i thought but progression would be nice! Im all for taking it slow i mean ive been really trying to go with the flow.. i should be happy that things are great thus far and not mess them up by wanting to have an answer but its that insecure side of me that needs to know...

Heres the funny thing im dying to know yet im not sure that i even want a title or full out commitment myself... im scared to get hurt again, im scared the man will turn into an ass by the 6th month like the rest.. I guess its still a game, i want to know hes more into me then i am into him... wow i cant believe that just came outta my mouth.. i so thought i was over games but i guess we never really stop playing them huh...

Alright i need a self pep talk....
QB things are fine the way they are dont mess em up by wanting & needing to know everything... Dont be a crazy girl!

Serenity Now!!

Ok crazy rant over and out!

Closure...

hello ya'll its been a while. sowwy QB!!!

So here is what im annoyed at... men! of course what else. if there are any men reading this let me give you a few pointers in dating. women would REALLY appreciate it...

Don't date unless you have time for it
Don't intorduce us to your parents if you don't want anything serious
Don't say you aren't interested in dating other people when clearly you are
Don't stop calling without any explanation
Don't keep a problem to yourself - talk about it
Don't only think of yourself

DO have enough balls to wanna end something instead of leaving me thinking: what just happened????

I mean really is there a point to not calling because quite frankly, when i say ill call you back, what i mean is.... I'LL CALL YOU BACK!!! i mean i know that women mature faster than men, but when ya get into your 30's its just expected that you are at that mental level to be able to handle relationships. as women, what we really want is closure. It may be a little difficult to understand but we actually want you to just be straight up and say, "hey you know what this is just not working for me" or "let's go our seperate ways". you know what my response would be: ok, no problem best of luck to ya. some women might wanna know why, and i mean give them what they want. in their eyes things are going perfect and there are no issues so maybe they want some justification. That uncomfortable feeling that comes with the explanations will only last for as long as the conversation. after that you can have a guilt-free conscience and the woman can get on with her life. its a win win!

when you dont give any reasons, the woman is thinking, my god, i hope he is ok, did he get into an accident? what could it be?!!! never for one minute thinking he just isnt interested because you haven't given her the impression you aren't into it, on the contrary u keep saying how you really like her.

bottom line guys, just be honest and stop being so selfish!!! gosh..

as a side note if you are a guy reading this and you havent done any of the things ive just talked about then sorry for the generalization. if you have then for gods sake stop!!!

as for the girls who have gone through this, ill tell you what a very close friend of mine told me to say to myself: NEXT!

CB