Well ladies and gents....
Im sad to say that i have given in to that stupid thing called emotions!! I decided back in Nov to get out there and start dating again after being single since July. I wanted to have fun, meet new ppl, let loose and maybe boost my ego a little (WHAT like yall havent done it!) So i signed up on one of those trendy dating sites and off i went.... I met about 6-7 total guys most being either duds or just not my type except 1. We chatted maybe twice on the phone but each times had amazing conversations most of which contained joke after joke and then i set up a meet & greet... Well needless to say the date went great he was fun, adorable and a total gentleman and its now been almost 4 months worth of dating..
Whats the problem you ask? Well its been close to 4 months and i have little idea how he feels.. i mean i KNOW hes interested, he wouldnt want to hang out if he wasnt but we have never really talked about where we stand and although im pretty afraid to commit agian and dont want a title to this madness id at least like to know that its possibly heading there... He made a comment in early march after i returned from a 2 week vacation that he saw us working towards a relationship... yeah ok fine thats cool i thought but progression would be nice! Im all for taking it slow i mean ive been really trying to go with the flow.. i should be happy that things are great thus far and not mess them up by wanting to have an answer but its that insecure side of me that needs to know...
Heres the funny thing im dying to know yet im not sure that i even want a title or full out commitment myself... im scared to get hurt again, im scared the man will turn into an ass by the 6th month like the rest.. I guess its still a game, i want to know hes more into me then i am into him... wow i cant believe that just came outta my mouth.. i so thought i was over games but i guess we never really stop playing them huh...
Alright i need a self pep talk....
QB things are fine the way they are dont mess em up by wanting & needing to know everything... Dont be a crazy girl!
Serenity Now!!
Ok crazy rant over and out!
Friday, April 11, 2008
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3 comments:
found your blog on accident and the name intrigued me. reading an entry or two i'd say dating sucks about as bad for you as me. hard to be patient sometimes but it sounds like you're doing it right. its pretty sad people want to have concrete evidence that someone likes them but it seems to always work that way. take it slow with the dude and i think you'll be just fine. if its been a couple months you should start seeing hints of how he really is unless he's been 100% honest from go. good luck!
Thanks matty do you have a blog??
uhm yeee its just a silly combo being horny and wanting some attention from the other side :) just do some cleaning and it will go away pretty fast :)
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